Obsessed Crazy

Obsessed crazy

Need success and money as bad as human beings need air. 

No, I'm for real. 

Money can't buy you love, peace and happiness, but it can buy you everything else, even some time.

Time, is very important all the time,

All the time, every second, minute, hour, trying to accomplish,

 seeking a miracle to be,

 focused on being a better me, 

which is a man with a plan, 

an author with faith that he'll go farther and farther up, farther like light years away. 

Even when that time come I'll still only will be a call away.

Not being humble always, could lead to a fumble in many ways.

In many ways I know that life itself should be satisfying yet it is heaven I seek, you know love, peace, happiness, blessed with a money on top, now that is gratifying.

Some don't think it's obsession but just plain ole craziness and stress, how when they come to my house all the t.v's are off, lights is off, everything is off. 

Once they thought that I was dead or loss cause I turned my phone off then threw it way out in the woods and then walked off.

Stress well yeah somewhat but more so sleepy I've been up this entire week,

with only about 5 hours at the most of sleep,

an hour a day barely, 

trust me though I am not crazy, 

if anything you know that I'm not lazy.

Obsessed or crazy, 

all I do is work and think for weeks,  barely have time to eat, 

no shower and I stink, 

about day 7-8 it got so bad that I still didn't shower I just hurried up and hit the sink.

I will never forget this journey to my zenith. I will remember every eye opener and every blink of an eye.

If you get my drift then hopefully you see my living and dying outside of the box as a gift. 

Something special maybe a little off how I've debated with God and how I swung on the devil. 

I've learned, so now when I see evil I give it a big hug, maybe a handshake, or kiss then walk away.

I don't sit down to be entertained and then trapped like how I used to. 

I could never get use to the pain, 

and the chains and the sudden off and on switch placed on the wall of my brain.

That's the past though, today I hang,

I hangout mostly with God. Oh wow!

I got to smile to that, 

especially when I glimpse back, 

see me in combat, 

now I'm right here alive so I guess it's safe to say that we conquered all of that.

Obsessed with winning, crazy and insane about winning, 

cause there are no other options got to win and even if the final score doesn't favor me, 

I'm going to win and the reward is going to be a lesson learned in the end. So still I end up winning in overtime cause I went for the wisdom.

You know whenever you try and fail at least you got something cause the only way you can fail is if you try to do something. 

When you don't try the least you get is absolutely nothing, 

not failure, 

not an achievement, 

not even a chance.

Failed a million times, every time though there was a chance that I could have achieved something maybe small, possibly out of this world though.

I'm not just hoping for a miracle, trying to find a miracle, 

I'm working on being the miracle.

I'm not spending time looking for a person to give me a breakthrough, cause I'm striving to be a breakthrough for people.

I'm not just trying to read others success stories, 

watch other peoples success story. I'm working to be a success story myself.