Addiction

Oh what a feeling this is, 

I've gotten to love it more then anything, even life itself. 

All that I care about these days is this thing and the feeling that it gives me. Please don't judge me cause we all have our addictions.

We all have something that we just can't get away from, this something that enters into the mind, then creep down and latches onto the body then won't let go and when it finally does leave the body it actually becomes sad and disturbed of the departure and so is the mind.

I've seen addiction just take people away only for them to never return and even for those that did they looked in the mirror and couldn't recognize the person they was looking at. 

But you see that's some of the bad things of addiction and being addicted to negative things cause in truth even the bad negative addictions could be used for positive growth, for amazing transformations and wisdom, to humble, to make one grateful and appreciative when maybe you wasn't before.

Any and all addictions can be good and or bad. I guest it's the outcome that determines which one it is.

My addiction has kept me alive believe it or not and yeah I've almost met my death a few times from the most brutal withdrawals.

Withdrawals that lasted longer then three days, or weeks, or months,

 I'm talking years.

I got my first taste of this thing when I was in elementary and I enjoyed the feelings and highs well up into my twenties and from then on I've just experience moments of this thing that I love and cherish and obsessed over for so long, dreamed about just about every night, had nightmares of it vanishing and not ever returning.

That thing, this thing, what is it you ask?

Well its success of course and happiness which to me is one and the same.

I'm addicted to my dreams, to my passion, to putting my stamp on this world, carving out my legacy, 

making it to the mountain top.

I get a rush when I achieve something, may sound crazy but in my addiction I believe in.

Wake up and the first thing on my mind is getting my fix of progression, of some happiness. 

Success is all that I think about hustle and work towards all day everyday. 

I'm a stone cold junky for success.

Without it I'm sick, still I try to embrace my sick times and not fight them cause that'll only make things worst. 

The sick times is spiritual times cause it takes all of my soul to push forward, to still work, march, talk and keep on at it well past the dark.

We all have addictions for better or worst. Mines is success, happiness, striving to be the best, get the most out of this lifetime.

We all have them, 

what is your, 

Addiction?