The greatest love

The greatest love

I can feel my heart smiling,

I have this energy that I never had before, this motivation within that can't be tamed and as I write this ambition out its a beautiful thing.

If being a lover, loving or being in love is corny then I'm it, cause I'm far from being a hater, hatred, or hating this, hating that. Hate I don't have time for it, not a second.

Though love is a gateway to pain, 

It's even an avenue I once stepped in, 

taking my chances cause love is also a stairway to heaven.

The greatest blessing.

I've seen I love you's turn rainy days into sunny days,

 sad days into happy days, 

Serious, delirious days into silly cool days,

Red hot angry days into blue chill relaxing days.

This love the greatest love makes the impossible, possible,

The unrealistic, realistic,

Replaced nightmares, with dreams and then bring them to life.

With the greatest love, this unconditional thing there is no need to worry about a thing, doubt a thing.

It's a marathon, not a sprint a short stint.

There will be tough times, rough times, hard times endurance is required and love has it.

The greatest love is an Olympian when it comes to distance running.

This great spirit is loyal and faithful like no other, believing always no matter what like a mother in her son.

A great love that never got it together or came together, stayed together is the greatest tragedy.

This great love is meant to be a forever thing, destroyed by no one,

dictated by no outside parties, this love just can't be stopped.

This love is a destiny that was meant to be.

It's like the soul is at a perfect temperature with it and without it cold and sick with it.

Money have tried this and later found out that it can't buy this.

However it's funny cause this great love can and will have you with money.

Money is cool, we had things, had fun, we survived.

But when we were sick or when we was struggling, when nothing could help. 

It was this great love that kept is alive.

You see I'm in the world,

not of the world,

so to the world this may sound strange but it's like better then good sex, is a great hug,

from the greatest love.

Obsessed Crazy

Obsessed crazy

Need success and money as bad as human beings need air. 

No, I'm for real. 

Money can't buy you love, peace and happiness, but it can buy you everything else, even some time.

Time, is very important all the time,

All the time, every second, minute, hour, trying to accomplish,

 seeking a miracle to be,

 focused on being a better me, 

which is a man with a plan, 

an author with faith that he'll go farther and farther up, farther like light years away. 

Even when that time come I'll still only will be a call away.

Not being humble always, could lead to a fumble in many ways.

In many ways I know that life itself should be satisfying yet it is heaven I seek, you know love, peace, happiness, blessed with a money on top, now that is gratifying.

Some don't think it's obsession but just plain ole craziness and stress, how when they come to my house all the t.v's are off, lights is off, everything is off. 

Once they thought that I was dead or loss cause I turned my phone off then threw it way out in the woods and then walked off.

Stress well yeah somewhat but more so sleepy I've been up this entire week,

with only about 5 hours at the most of sleep,

an hour a day barely, 

trust me though I am not crazy, 

if anything you know that I'm not lazy.

Obsessed or crazy, 

all I do is work and think for weeks,  barely have time to eat, 

no shower and I stink, 

about day 7-8 it got so bad that I still didn't shower I just hurried up and hit the sink.

I will never forget this journey to my zenith. I will remember every eye opener and every blink of an eye.

If you get my drift then hopefully you see my living and dying outside of the box as a gift. 

Something special maybe a little off how I've debated with God and how I swung on the devil. 

I've learned, so now when I see evil I give it a big hug, maybe a handshake, or kiss then walk away.

I don't sit down to be entertained and then trapped like how I used to. 

I could never get use to the pain, 

and the chains and the sudden off and on switch placed on the wall of my brain.

That's the past though, today I hang,

I hangout mostly with God. Oh wow!

I got to smile to that, 

especially when I glimpse back, 

see me in combat, 

now I'm right here alive so I guess it's safe to say that we conquered all of that.

Obsessed with winning, crazy and insane about winning, 

cause there are no other options got to win and even if the final score doesn't favor me, 

I'm going to win and the reward is going to be a lesson learned in the end. So still I end up winning in overtime cause I went for the wisdom.

You know whenever you try and fail at least you got something cause the only way you can fail is if you try to do something. 

When you don't try the least you get is absolutely nothing, 

not failure, 

not an achievement, 

not even a chance.

Failed a million times, every time though there was a chance that I could have achieved something maybe small, possibly out of this world though.

I'm not just hoping for a miracle, trying to find a miracle, 

I'm working on being the miracle.

I'm not spending time looking for a person to give me a breakthrough, cause I'm striving to be a breakthrough for people.

I'm not just trying to read others success stories, 

watch other peoples success story. I'm working to be a success story myself.

The 25th hour

25th hour

Failed for the millionth time,

Still though I could succeed on the millionth and one try.

hey, you never know, 

but if you give up one thing you will know is that it's over,

and it can't never be over, 

not even if the fat lady sings, 

not even if no one else believes in you, 

not even if you fail again, and again, and again, again.

Not even on the 24th hour 

or the 25th hour either. 

Don't give up. Ever.

Keep on trying until that day your heart stops and or your breath is gone.

Until then keep on living, 

keep on trying and striving.

Cry if you have to, 

cry until you have no more tears left to cry.

Fear you only and nothing else.

I spent a whole day running, tripping, hurdling, fighting and everything else.

A whole 24 hours. Ran, tripped, hurdled, fought all to fail again. 

Giving up and quitting was hanging on to my back. 

Curiosity killed the cat, 

but it birthed success because life changed for the better when I got to the 25th hour. 

Addiction

Oh what a feeling this is, 

I've gotten to love it more then anything, even life itself. 

All that I care about these days is this thing and the feeling that it gives me. Please don't judge me cause we all have our addictions.

We all have something that we just can't get away from, this something that enters into the mind, then creep down and latches onto the body then won't let go and when it finally does leave the body it actually becomes sad and disturbed of the departure and so is the mind.

I've seen addiction just take people away only for them to never return and even for those that did they looked in the mirror and couldn't recognize the person they was looking at. 

But you see that's some of the bad things of addiction and being addicted to negative things cause in truth even the bad negative addictions could be used for positive growth, for amazing transformations and wisdom, to humble, to make one grateful and appreciative when maybe you wasn't before.

Any and all addictions can be good and or bad. I guest it's the outcome that determines which one it is.

My addiction has kept me alive believe it or not and yeah I've almost met my death a few times from the most brutal withdrawals.

Withdrawals that lasted longer then three days, or weeks, or months,

 I'm talking years.

I got my first taste of this thing when I was in elementary and I enjoyed the feelings and highs well up into my twenties and from then on I've just experience moments of this thing that I love and cherish and obsessed over for so long, dreamed about just about every night, had nightmares of it vanishing and not ever returning.

That thing, this thing, what is it you ask?

Well its success of course and happiness which to me is one and the same.

I'm addicted to my dreams, to my passion, to putting my stamp on this world, carving out my legacy, 

making it to the mountain top.

I get a rush when I achieve something, may sound crazy but in my addiction I believe in.

Wake up and the first thing on my mind is getting my fix of progression, of some happiness. 

Success is all that I think about hustle and work towards all day everyday. 

I'm a stone cold junky for success.

Without it I'm sick, still I try to embrace my sick times and not fight them cause that'll only make things worst. 

The sick times is spiritual times cause it takes all of my soul to push forward, to still work, march, talk and keep on at it well past the dark.

We all have addictions for better or worst. Mines is success, happiness, striving to be the best, get the most out of this lifetime.

We all have them, 

what is your, 

Addiction?

I love you!!! part 1

I love you

Hey, I just want you to know that I love you. I always have and I always will. I'll never stopped loving you.

You see the problem was that sometime ago I stopped loving me.

So now I've been in another world,

Traveling around trying to find my love, my love for me that I once had so greatly, so happily.

Your always on my mind though,

a few times I broke down crying thinking about you. Crazy but true.

True love spilling out of my eyes.

All I can do is keep on fighting to reach my dreams, for you and me.

No matter how long we are apart,

No matter where you are at or how you are doing, looking and feeling,

my love for you has no ceiling.

I love you,

I really do,

I know that you love me too.

With all the stuff you seen me go through and all that I put you through,

yet still at the end of the day it's been me and and you.

I love you!!!!

It's not over yet!!!

God spoke to me yesterday, rather through some chain of events,

and I got it but I didn't so today my favorite person on this earth my mom was sent. 

In my ears, through my ears were the words it's not over yet. 

This morning I woke up only to see, especially to see that it wasn't over yet. 

Some bad things seems like they were meant to guide me right, 

Some right things seemed as if they were meant to hide me from evil's sight. 

Love and fight, fight for love, do right by love and for love. 

I tried to tell many about love but that was the wrong way, for what could I say, what I show would be most powerful. 

This world, those people, places and things, could and has turned some angelic like people mean, cold and unlike who they really are, stay away, or stand ground while in the way. 

Truth is I've battled, I even became frustrated with God a time or two.

I didn't understand, I wanted what I wanted, I feel bad because what I wanted may not have been good for me. It would have destroyed what was left of what I was holding on too.

I've been lost, blinded, in a fog, sad, angry, outraged, drugged up, 

blacked out, almost dead, yeah that high, heart beating abnormally fast,

out of breath, this is it my death, next there was the sun sliding through the blinds, birds singing a favorite song of mine, my eyes and ears were active, I'm alive, my heart was beating peacefully and on top of it all I lifted up and got out of the bed quite easily.

It wasn't over yet.

I thanked God, I asked for forgiveness, he forgave me and said

"Now take advantage of your time because it's not over yet."

In honor of Lebron James

The greatest player in the world!!!

I'm the greatest I couldn't feel any other way. I've worked to hard to feel any other way, You know?

From nothing to everything,

I remember when all of this was just a dream, 

Now I'm a leader on my team.

You see it's deeper then the game and me being on the court rocking my own shoes, 

I pay my dues, 

Like; while the world is sleep, 

I'm working and while the world is working I'm working too.

I'm at the gym in the weight room, then I'm on the court shooting hundreds of shots, thousands of shots.

And that's not even the half cause it doesn't stop,

Staying paying dues,

Practice, then the games, interviews, interviews and more interviews, 

City to city, state to state, 

All the while striving to be great, 

Meanwhile my team, my fans, the media and the people want there time  and of course my family needs there's too,

I'm a family man just like you,

I know at times it may seem like I'm superman yet still I'm a person no different then you, 

I'm human just the same,

Blessed with a 6'8, 260 pound frame with game,

Cause on the court I can do it all,

I'm like the modern magic ya'll,

I can shoot, dribble, pass, rebound, d-up, post up, hold up slow up, 

pull up,

So you other players think about that next time you see 23 at the three what's it going to be?

One thing for sure it has to be greatness, 

Expect nothing less from,

The Greatest Player in the World!!!

Ohio State Football, Go Bucks!!!

Ohio state football 

Congratulations to the Ohio State Football team, the national champions of the first ever college football playoffs!!!! 

We are all proud of you all across this great state of Ohio!!!!!!

Go Bucks!!!!!

2015, A better year.

Well, ok. 2015 this year will be better then last year. I'm claiming it and plus it just have to be a better year because last year for me was rough, yeah there were some bright moments but for the most part 2014 was a struggle for me. Along with that our society seemed as outrageous as ever. So I'm looking forward to more of a peaceful year within our country society, world and also within myself which is most important. Speaking of being within myself this I'm working towards being right within myself more then I ever have don't get me wrong I try to focus on myself and live more internal then external at this very moment and time in life. I think that is one of our biggest problems as a whole is that we live more externally then internally for example we focus to much on other people rather then ourselves getting to know who you are, working on loving your own selfs to the fullest, discovering what truly makes us happy, etc.....

Rather then spending so much time on the phone, watching T.V and listening to music and drooling over all the materials in the world. 

This year I want to discover my heaven and not needing anything or anyone else in order for me to reach my heaven, to have happiness.

2015 I'm getting back on track, moving forward, focused on the moments, taking advantage of time, seeking materials, even being the miracle. This year I'm going to be happy, I'm going to love myself and find peace within myself. I'm putting all my faith in the almighty and little if any in man cause man tends to disappoint you a lot and it's just the right thing to do and the smart thing to do at least I think so anyway.

2015, I pray that this year is a great year, blessed year, the best year for myself and my family and for you all and your families too.

As always: Keep the Faith!!!

2015 blog changes

I did not know that the settings for this blog of mines wasn't allowing people to make comments I've just recently changed that so you all can feel free to make comments on my past, present and future post, please leave comments. Also feel free to share any ideas, thoughts, or points of vies you may have about life, this society that we live in, love, health, business, etc....

I'm all about being positive, thinking and being positive, so please whatever you bring to the table make sure that it's positive, I'm most definitely looking forward to getting back some positive feedback, thoughts, feelings, and outlooks from you all.